Saturday, February 29, 2020

I have a brain injury


I am now depressed. That’s now normal for me. It will last for me for a day or two, when I will get happy again. Why? I have a brain injury. Can I tell anyone? Would they believe me? I am tired of existing in other people’s world. Do I have to carry my medical report every day, get them to read it? It’s six years old, it’s 8 pages… I don’t think anyone would read it. Do I tell them I had a stroke six years ago? Does everyone believe that I would have recovered from that by now?

Do you understand how I feel every day when I am fighting to stay within your world??

Most of my life I spent living with other people. Now I live entirely alone: sometimes I love it – yet other times I can’t deal with it. I just crawl into my bed, no matter how early, and play Sudoko until I drift off to sleep.

Synapse has a very good article titled “When they don’t believe you have a brain injury”. This is many people I have met after brain aneurysm, after stroke with brain injury like me. This is ME. Please read this and understand me.

Brainline has a very good article titled “Lost & Found: What brain injury survivors want you to know”. This is many people who now work in a different place than they did before their injury, before their stroke like me. This is ME. Please read this and understand me.

They also wrote an article about life with brain injury back in 2010 and reviewed it in 2018 - read it, maybe there’s info in this for you: https://www.brainline.org/article/life-brain-injury-preparing-yourself-and-your-family

ABI and TBI are the same over the world. Google anything with ABI, TBI, brain injury or stroke in it. There are so many websites available about anything to do with these issues if you will read.

I found this saying in a website I read recently, but – my problem - I’ve forgotten where I saw it! My life will never be the same as previously. It has taken me four years to accept this, but I still don’t like it, I don’t like how I am now living, I don’t like that I can’t return to a full-time job.

Sometimes I live good… sometimes very good. Yet a small, non-consequential event can take me down. Most times nowadays is not where I used to be two years ago, but it’s lower than I may have been yesterday.

Read the Better Health site or the Queensland Government Health site on what causes ABI. Better Health says: “An ABI can affect intimate relationships, friendships, social networks, recreational and vocational activities. It may force the person and their immediate family to adapt to a completely new way of life and new kinds of relationships.” If your family member / friend / workmate is recovering, this might be what from. Queensland Health says that “[i]mpairments can be either temporary or permanent.” It’s up to you to understand that.

Read the Brain Foundation site on what causes brain aneurysms. They say that cerebral aneurysms are “a common disorder… present in probably 2% or more of adults…” yet few people even know about them.

Read the Stroke Foundation website of what causes a stroke. They note what causes strokes: “Blood may be interrupted or stop moving through an artery, because the artery is blocked (ischaemic stroke) or bursts (haemorrhagic stroke). When brain cells do not get enough oxygen or nutrients, they die. The area of brain damage is called a cerebral infarct.” Have you ever seen anyone who has suffered from this? Maybe it was your family member, your friend, your workmate. 

These are a very small number of websites which you can read if you Google, but they will help you to understand.

My brain aneurysm and stroke happened on 22 April 2014. That’s 6 years ago and I am not – and will never be – back to where I was before all that happened. I am now depressed. That’s normal. I will get happy again in a couple of days. Why? Because I have a brain injury.


Friday, February 28, 2020

What would you do?


Yesterday – 27th February – I wanted to go for a bit of a drive when I went home from Griffith Uni at Nathan. Usually I would just go right from Griffith into Kessels Road, onwards into Riawena Road and Granard Road which takes me onto the Ipswich motorway. Instead I turned left, turned right into Mains Road and right at Sunnybank into McCullough Street. (If you don’t know this area, look it up on the map.) McCullough Street runs into Boundary Road, which crosses Beaudesert Road and heads towards Archerfield. This was where I was heading.


I hadn’t gone very far into the road across Beaudesert Road when I saw a power line – across the Boundary Road to Desgrand Street – which had been ripped from the power pole and was lying across the road – and there were still some vehicles driving over it!! It was still connected to both the power poles, but there were no sparks or indication that power was still there. However, only the middle of the lead laid in the middle of the road, leaving very little space for any vehicles to drive under, and certainly not indicated as no power.

Boundary Road is a two lane road, quite small, but very big trucks travel along it. I turned around and parked in front of that lead because I saw safety. So many cars, so many trucks, and one chap came and helped me to turn those vehicles around and not allow them to cross that area. I rang police, and so did he. They came pretty quickly and kept the road blocked off. I left before the electrical truck came to cut that lead right off – I hope it was done pretty quickly.

In 2013, before my stroke, I had completed a Graduate Diploma of Occupational Health & Safety from CQU. It had taken me 2.5 years part-time, but it was worth it. Unfortunately, in 2014 I had a stroke with aphasia, and I haven’t been able to work in OHS. Today’s incident was, for me, something that struck on my brain as a safety incident. I didn’t even have a safety vest, I was in my jeans and a kaftan, but I gave directions to vehicles, with assistance from a wonderful chap whose name I didn’t get.

I probably still won’t be able to do safety again, in a couple of days I'll have forgotten what happened today – but I am feeling very happy that I did something about this before it may have ended up with a serious issue. It’s not even on the police Facebook page, but OHS still rocks!

Monday, February 24, 2020

Literature can be political



Three stories I read recently may – or may not - have fulfilled the requirements of ‘feminist’ and ‘politics’. Perhaps, as one writer said, they should be “chart[ing] the story as one of progress beyond falsely boundaried categories and identities.” (Hemmings 2005, p. 116). All of these three used literary perspective as ‘third person omniscient’, which were the predominance of short stories.

Exotic Pleasures, written by Peter Carey in 1979, was futuristic, yet contained many recognisable props. His literary device used all of the first page describing Lilly Danko, telling about her as we should know her. The principals of this tale were the pregnant Lilly and her husband, Mort, looking for work. That similar possibility was “now complimented by a range of alternate entities, including intergovernmental organisations, public and private corporations, universities and scientists, and even individual space entrepreneurs.” (Freeland 2013, p. 10). Domesticity wasn’t predominantly included – “culturally imposed patterns of male power and female powerlessness” (Donovan 1991, pp. 451-452) - yet Lilly knitted as she waited for her husband. They had an old car (how old was the Chevrolet?), yet they visited a space employer at the Kennecott Interstellar Space Terminal (how futuristic?). The story seemed to follow the very old genre – woman married to man who is in charge.

The space story seemed to push story-politics about how space is sold as ‘personal growth’, yet it doesn’t invest in this. Pasco said that many short story writers “hedge on definitions major traits, on just about everything having to do with story as a genre” (Pasco 1991, p. 407), and that’s what Carey did in his tale. However, a reader may not have accepted this as a futuristic tale if they had taken into account all the props without looking at the Interstellar Space Terminal. In fact, even motels, schools and shopping centres were old genre – from current time dying politics.

Torr, who wrote about the “multiplicity of general social, political and economic factors that exist and could be examined as part of an investigation of the texts’ broader contexts”, claimed that feminist authors should be “aspiring to find out what actually has been going on in academic feminism.” (Torr 2007, p. 65). Exotic Pleasure, written by a man, was still very difficult to read if one wanted to examine which gender controlled it, and even difficult when the bird, one of the principals in the tale, was an alien.

Serpents was historical. Initially, Eleanor Dark, writing in 1959, used her literary device as talk about snakes: where they came from; comparison to Eva and Adam’s serpent in the bible; known by scientists as ‘squamata’. When first reading the tale one could get frustrated that it appeared to be a scientific essay and not a tale. Males were referred to by Dark as the “further decree of perpetual enmity between men and snakes”, and yet “sons of Adam are inclined to be tolerant of carpet snakes” whilst “daughters of Eve, on their own ground, are less forbearing...” By the second page of the tale, Dark acknowledged the women’s “gentle sex” became “savage” when snakes were around (Dark, p. 193).

Dark used italics in her writing, to express the detail of the women’s language: “I just don't like snakes, and I will not have them in the house...” (passionately), and “I can never... get used to the way they climb!'” (distastefully), and “I might have put my hand on it!” (indignantly). She wrote far too many ‘first’ pages about snakes-men-women and what could be said-done-happened. Until page 196, the tale wasn’t even really told: three pages for the actual tale! It possibly became amusing then, if the reader had been a male. But if a reader was female, even feminist, what happened in this tale would have made her anxious-upset-angry as the husband spread the time out whilst he was looking for a ‘weapon’. Feminists would have thought that he was a ridiculous male: he had ignored his wife’s fear of snakes!

Brayshaw said “...[Dark] created works which both perfectly reflect their own time and remain equally readable eighty years later.” (Brayshaw 2017, online). This tale wasn’t political, yet the tale of Sue fighting physically with the snake was certainly timely when it was written, and still timely now.

‘Brusque’ on Bondi is ‘normal’ these days as the area around this beach is filling with immigrants and tourists who, maybe, still think of the Cronulla riots even at the other end of Sydney. But Hospital wrote this in 1990, and maybe Cronulla had followed this Bondi tale full of the brusque behaviour and drug needles. As children, Leigh and Cass were brought up in religious families surrounded with biblical stories, so where they were in the tale is far away from that. Cass is married, but Leigh isn’t. Their behaviour was not ‘feminist’, but was very different than with their parents. Leigh lived her own life using men, while Cass sometimes wondered about her (male) partner. Feminism seems to accord many young women now.

Men on the beach saw themselves as Tarzan – “superlative athletic physiques” – and (could have) thought that “[b]lacks are basically stupid and superstitious, foreigners are evil, but the human race is saved through the power of a strong white man... striding powerfully around to save (white?) civilisation from evil.” (West 2000, p.3). West also wondered “Do men living an area such as Bondi in which there is much attention to men’s bodies behave differently from men in other locations?” (West 2000, p. 9). Yet fighting on the beach is similar to fighting outside bars, in a mall, or in any place where discrimination, prejudice and intolerance is seen but is not understood.

A “literary work offers the reader only an experience of reading that literary work.”, if we wanted to – or needed to – believe a writer. (Donnelly 2019, p. 12). This was reiterated by Samuels: “Modern short stories are characterized by their fragmentation and lack of resolution.” (Samuels 1996, p. 87). Many short stories do very well within their literal perspective, but those which miss out will not maintain their readers.


Short stories

Carey, P. 1979, “Exotic Pleasures”, War Crimes, pp. 211-240, University of Queensland Press, Brisbane.
Dark, E. 1959, “Serpents”, The Penguin century of Australian stories (2000), pp. 192-199, Viking, Ringwood Victoria.
Hospital, J.T. 1990, “Bondi”, Isobars, pp. 68-81, University of Queensland Press, Brisbane.

 

References

 

Brayshaw, M. 2017, “The Quiet Brilliance of Eleanor Dark”, accessed 16/05/2019, http://australianwomenwriters.com/2017/08/the-quiet-brilliance-of-eleanor-dark/

Donnelly, M. 2019, “The Cognitive Value of Literary Perspectives”, The Journal of Aesthestics and Art Criticism, Vol. 77, Iss. 1, University at Buffalo, N.Y.
Donovan, J. 1991, “Women and the Rise of the Novel: A Feminist-Marxist Theory”, Signs, Vol. 16, No. 3, pp. 441-46, The University of Chicago Press.
Freeland, S. 2013, “Outer space technology and warfare: Pandora’s Box”, Aviation and Space Journal, Vol. 21, Bologna, Italy.
Hemmings, C. 2005, “Telling Feminist Stories”, Feminist Theory, Vol. 6, Iss. 2, pp. 115–139, Sage Publications, London.
Pasco, A.H. 1991, “On Defining Short Stories”, New Literary History, Vol. 22, No. 2, pp. 407-422, The Johns Hopkins University Press, Baltimore, Maryland.
Samuels, S. 1996, “Dislocation and Memory in the Short Stories of Janette Turner Hospital”, Journal of Modern Literature, Vol. 20, No. 1, pp. 85-95, Indiana University Press.
Torr, R. 2007, “What’s wrong with aspiring to find out what has really happened in academic feminism’s recent past?”, Feminist Theory, Vol. 8, Iss. 1, pp. 59-67, Sage Publications, London.
West, P. 2000, From Tarzan to the Terminator: Boys, men and body image, A work-in-progress paper, University of Western Sydney.


Saturday, February 22, 2020

Journalism is not a crime


The Media Entertainment and Arts Alliance (MEAA) is a member of the Australian Press Council and is viewed by government as a union. The MEAA report in 2018, entitled Criminalising Journalism, had a foreword from the CEO, Paul Murphy, who said: “There’s almost universal acceptance of the maxim ‘Journalism is not a crime’. One exception is Australia’s parliament – it begs to differ.” (Dobbie 2018, p.3).

In 1987 and up to 1989 Gerald Fitzgerald, QC, was the chairman of the Commission of Inquiry which looked into “Possible Illegal Activities and Associated Police Misconduct”, according to his covering letter with the report on 3 July 1989. The commission had investigated many documents, interviewed many witnesses, and had a large number of people assisting them. By the end of the Commission of Inquiry, Fitzgerald said in his report “Parliament and the media are two of the most important means by which information about the operations of Government reaches the public.” (Fitzgerald 1989, p.358).

The problem since then, has been how much the government has changed how the media can work. The government, re-elected in 2016, introduced their updated law in 2017 (DCA, online). Now MEAA differs with them.

In 2019 the MEAA report was entitled The Public’s Right to Know as the government treatment of journalists became worse. Murphy said the government are “looking to operate in secret, shroud their activities and suppress all the information about them, discourage freedom of information searches, pursue and punish whistleblowers and place barriers in the way of journalists seeking to tell the truth of what governments are doing in our name.” (Dobbie 2019, p.3). MEAA created the Journalist Code of Ethics in 1944. It was updated in 1984, and endured a major analysis between 1994 and 1999 (MEAA, online). It is now 12 items long. MEAA’s Code of Ethics, Item 8, says “Use fair, responsible and honest means to obtain material. Identify yourself and your employer before obtaining any interview for publication or broadcast. Never exploit a person’s vulnerability or ignorance of media practice.” Most journalists understand this and write as they follow the code, yet the government still gags them with their new draconian law, passed by both houses on 16 October 2017.

Pearson sees it different, with a blog titled “The MEAA Code of Ethics: all spin and no stick” (Pearson 2013, online).  He said MEAA, whilst they have a good ethic code, does not use ‘discipline’ against journalists who turn up their noses at it. Even for MEAA members, identifying themselves is often not done when television teams stand outside of a court and try to capture those leaving a case, especially if they have lost it. An ‘interview’ may not specifically happen at that environment, so television teams simply film whatever they want to broadcast. Yet journalists continue with major investigative stories which seem to work against Item 8.

Tanner et al said “the interaction between journalists and ‘vulnerable’ sources features has been a key element of journalism ethics texts…” (Tanner et al 2010, p.88). A research report was undertaken about how journalists and news media write on the ‘vulnerable’ society and publish with respect. The researchers said they had recognised that the use of the word ‘vulnerable’ could create a stereotype problem (Pearson et al. 2010, p.90), and that some of the media may have a ‘media coding sheet’ which, prior to publication, can assist them (Pearson et al. 2010, p.92). These sheets may exist in many public media and can find out ‘what is the topic’ to ‘is the treatment of the topic positive or negative.’ (Pew Research Centre, online).

Bromley said the serious issues that journalists have become close to are predominantly near to the vulnerable society, including: “land grabs; environmental degradation; dangerous working conditions; the treatment of indigenous peoples; strike breaking; miscarriages of justice; criminal impunity; child abductions; medical misconduct; excessive profiteering; poverty; sexploitation; disenfranchisement; discrimination; extremism; police brutality, and migration…” (Bromley 2017, p.224). The government’s new law attempts to stop media from delving into many issues they now see.

Carson said that Australians need a degree of confidence in the “capacity of the mainstream press to adequately scrutinise corporate power and its influences on the state”, which has been traditionally in our lives (Carson 2014, p.728).  She said investigative journalism was an important area to cover, and it is expensive, but Australians follow this because they see this as a much better journalistic field for those who become the ‘vulnerable’ society. Many journalists agree with this, acknowledging that there are “effective collaborations across national borders” and there are many investigative journalists who now prepare a collaborated report (Gearing 2014, p. 62).

Simons et al wrote of the impact that journalism has in society, and said investigative journalism is “[j]ournalism that requires substantial original inquiry by the journalist(s) which results in the creation of an evidentiary basis for a story or stories, without which that story/those stories would not have existed.” (Simon et al 2014, p.1409). They also said the journalistic business does not mean “impact” or “propaganda-based”, as suggested by corporate interests, but more “dissent, openness and diversity” (Simon et al 2014, p.1404).

MEAA supports the journalists’ privilege (Fernandez 2014, p.118) but still supports ethics. Stories had to be proven true. Many revolve around people who are seen as ‘victims’ and include ‘whistleblowers’ who told of people who have broken the law but were not caught.  Some of the journalists who recently investigated are listed below and may be accessed online.

Richard Baker and Nick McKenzie

Four Corners in November 2014 ran a story by Baker and McKenzie which looked at how people with disabilities were abused – often sexually – by carers who worked for Victoria’s care provider, Yooralla. McKenzie told how “complaints were ignored and whistleblowers targeted, their warnings not acted upon”, resulting in “two men employed by the organisation - and now allegedly a third - went on to rape and sexually abuse disabled clients.” The story led to a demand of the federal government to hold an inquiry to “discover the extent of the problem and prevent it happening again in the future.” (McKenzie, ABC online). The commission took years until to really set up, but started on 4 April 2019 (Royal Commission, online).

Aged people have the right to live without abuse.

Louise Milligan – Cardinal George Pell

Milligan’s report in 2016 was of the allegation of Cardinal Pell’s abuse of church boys. She had first found out about it by reading a Herald Sun front page story about police investigation of Pell, but she didn’t believe it then because the story didn’t include their source or quotes. She said “The thing that stood out to me was that we'd just had this royal commission talking about how we needed a better approach in the criminal justice system to dealing with these types of proceedings and I felt like it was 1985 and it had all been ignored.” (Johnson, ABC News online). Milligan built relationships with people who told of the sexual abuse that Pell did, including the family of one victim who committed suicide. It took Milligan 3 years to find the information she used for Pell to go to court – and to jail.

The Catholic church owes remorsefulness to the people.

Dan Oakes and Sam Clark – The Afghan Files

In 2017 Oakes and Clark began the stories of the Australian force in Afghan by publishing the Afghan Files on ABC, which ABC said “can reveal that some of the cases detailed in the documents are being investigated as possible unlawful killings.” (Oakes & Clark, ABC online). Earlier this year, 2019, the AFP used a warrant to search the ABC offices and took away thousands of pages of information of the Afghan files. The Conversation article said that even Australian’s Prime Minister, amongst others globally, “can act with impunity to intimidate - and even silence – journalists…” and “If law enforcement in … Australia can lodge doubts and instil fear in the minds of journalists and their sources, or if they can get news organizations to shy away from controversial stories, then these raids will have served their purpose…” (Socolow, online June 2019).

This government works for the people, not for themselves.

Adele Ferguson, Nassim Khadem & Lesley Robinson – Abuses of power by ATO

Ferguson et al wrote an article for Sydney Morning Herald about the ‘whistleblower’ people who have been found guilty of revealing government department’s secrets specifically Richard Boyle who had worked for ATO in Adelaide (Ferguson, SMH online). He was up for a sentence of 161 years for his alleged illegal copying of documents from ATO and passing that on to Ferguson. Khadem included information about the government’s ‘Black Economy Taskforce’ in an article on 14 January 2019 (Khadem, ABC News online) which requires a person charged with tax assessment fraud to prove it is wrong, rather than ATO prove that their information is correct.

ATO is still abusing their power, and Richard Boyle may suffer.


Ethics are the blood for journalists. MEAA stressed this in Principle 8, and it stands out over the years – and yet ethics can mean something very different for a journalist who is blocked by the court or the government for doing what they have been trained to do – printing the story. When journalists, such as the ones mentioned above, have applied their ethics even when they don’t match with Principle 8, the journalist’s ethics still mean something.

If this legislation is ‘draconian’, maybe it should be changed again.



Bromley, M. S., 2017, ‘Investigative Journalism and Human Rights’, in: Tumber,
H. and Waisbord, S. (Eds.), The Routledge Companion to Media and Human Rights. pp.
220-228, Routledge.
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Dobbie, M., 2019, The Public’s Right to Know, Media Entertainment & Arts Alliance, NSW, Australia.
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Ferguson, A., Khadem, N. & Robinson, L. 9 April 2018, Blowing the whistle on the tax office’s 'cash grab', Sydney Morning Herald, accessed 21 September 2019: https://www.abc.net.au/news/2019-01-14/treasury-black-economy-crackdown-proposals/10702602

Fernandez, J., 2014, ‘Journalists’ confidential sources: Reform lessons from recent Australian shield law cases’, Pacific Journalism Review, AUT Pacific Media Centre, Auckland, New Zealand.
Fitzgerald, G.E., 1989, Report of a Commission of Inquiry Pursuant to Orders in Council: Commission of Inquiry into Possible Illegal Activities and Associated Police Misconduct, GoPrint, Brisbane, Australia.
Gearing, A., 2014, ‘Investigative journalism in a socially networked world’, Pacific Journalism Review, Vol. 20, Iss. 1, Sydney, Australia.
Johnson, N., 4 March 2019, 'The toughest story I've ever done': Inside Louise Milligan's investigation of George Pell, ABC Backstory, accessed 20 September 2019: https://www.abc.net.au/news/about/backstory/investigative-journalism/2019-03-04/how-louise-milligan-investigated-the-george-pell-case/10867884
McKenzie, N., 24 November 2014, Four Corners: In our care, ABC Four Corners, accessed 24 September 2019: https://www.abc.net.au/4corners/in-our-care/5916148
Oakes, D., Clark, S., 11 July 2019, The Afghan Files, ABC News, accessed 20 Septemner 2019: https://www.abc.net.au/news/2017-07-11/killings-of-unarmed-afghans-by-australian-special-forces/8466642?pfmredir=sm

Pearson, M. 2013, The MEAA Code of Ethics: all spin and no stick, Journlaw, WordPress, accessed 13 September 2019: https://journlaw.com/?s=The+MEAA+Code+of+Ethics%3A+all+spin+and+no+stick

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Tanner, S.J., Pearson, M., Sykes, J. & Green, K. 2010, ‘Researching journalists and vulnerable sources: issues in the design and implementation of a national study’, Advances in Communication and Mass Media Research, Atiner, Athens, Greece.

Friday, February 21, 2020

Poetry

Poetry is inspirational. It is magical; lyrical; metaphorical; figurative imagery; tension, rhythm and emotion. It is all of those and much, much more! If you love poetry, you understand it.

Years ago I became entranced with poetry. As a child I had learned children’s poems like Baa Baa Sheep and Jack and Jill. As I grew up I began writing my own poems. I fell in love with the ‘cats’ poems written by T.S. Eliot: Andrew Lloyd Webber used the poems for his Cats musical, and to sing them and see them on stage hooked viewers. I have recently read a poem by Douglas Adams (author of The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy) written in his class at school in 1970 that seemed to sound so good (read it yourself!).

My personal poetry changed from enjambment to villanelle to free verse to rhyme, yet I wrote my poems as stories, comedies, songs, feminism, environmentalism and politics. For me, poetry tells my own tales. This one I wrote in 1975, and it told just how I had felt after I had been mistreated by a previous boyfriend.

Won’t somebody love me? It doesn’t take much
A little attention, a sweet gentle touch
I’m not extra pretty, at heart I’m quite shy
When I’m down in the dumps I quite often cry
Alone with my burden is all I can bear
I want someone with me with love I can share
So please, if you read this, then answer my plea
I just want a guy with enough love for me

I was 18 when I wrote this, and would soon after that enrol in the Army. Some other of my youth poetry happened during my Army career.

I had no ‘professional’ poetry training until I enrolled in a BA course – I am now 63, had a stroke 6 years ago, and can still write poems, but sometimes they take quite a lot of working on.

I read a few articles about using poetry within the workplace, or for students in schools. One said that nurses can use poetry to encourage their own compassion and empathy, and that would certainly help them to communicate with their patients much better (Jack & Illingworth 2019, p.1). Another wrote about how some teachers include ‘social justice’ poetry into their classes, giving their young students the ability to express themselves (Flint & Laman 2012, p.13). They had found that in 2010 poetry had been acknowledged as a wonderful way to allow students to “reflect on language, culture, experiences, and memories” and use the poetry essential skills, such as “brevity, rhythm, focused content, strong emotional connection, and powerful imagery” (ibid., p.14).

Lilly Blue works with the Red Room Poetry Company in NSW, and teaches her students poetry to enter the RRPC competitions with their own poem written about talismanic items (Blue, 2016, p.29). Reading some of the poems written by young students makes me want to congratulate them – they will advance a lot more in poetry!

Before my stroke I started a website – which is now closed after 7 years – which included some of my anti-rape poetry. My second website – also now closed after 7 years – had pages to my poetry. I have occasionally used my poetry in my blog. After my stroke I had moved up to Redlands. I discovered a poetry group and would meet up with them each week. Communicating with other people used to help me, but now I live a long way (for me) from any poetry group. So I still write my own poetry, put it to one side and re-write it.

Strand & Boland’s book was excellent for the BA course, but there were other poems within it which I couldn’t relate to. O’Driscoll wrote in an Irish Times article in 2000, reviewing Strand & Boland. He mentioned, in the first paragraph, many of the technical meanings of many poems: “villanelle, sestina, pantoum, sonnet, ballad, blank verse, heroic couplet and stanza”. I certainly agree with his view that this book “provides a feast for any reader gripped by a hunger for poetry's rhythms and revelations…”. (O’Driscoll, 2000). Many new poets wouldn’t even know any of the technical meanings, and as a poet from years ago I didn’t know any of these either, yet in the past couple of months I have been able to see where I had started my poetry. The poetry group I was with in Redlands drew me into ballad poetry, and that was the first time I became interested in Banjo Paterson with his historical ballads.

It’s taken me years to get back into my poetry, but now I am feeling more comfortable than I had been for a long time. These words are at the end of one of my 2013 poems.

What's in it for me? That's my question now
I'm learning the answer, I've got the know-how
Listen to my feelings, show me respect
And I'll give you more than you'd ever expect
Talk, listen, touch, feel, freedom to be
The person I am, the person that's "me"

I think I still feel this way now too!



Blue, L. 2016, “Poetry as a way of seeing: Risk, silence and attention”, Literary Learning: the Middle Years, Vol. 24, Iss. 2, Australian Literary Educators Association, NSW, Australia.

Flint, A.S. & Laman, T.T. 2012, “Where Poems Hide: Finding Reflective, Critical Spaces Inside Writing Workshop”, Theory Into Practice, Vol. 51, The College of Education and Human Ecology, The Ohio State University, USA.

Flood, A. 20 March 2014, Lost poems of Douglas Adams and Griff Rhys Jones found in school cupboard (Douglas Adams 1970, "A Dissertation on the task of writing a poem on a candle and an account of some of the difficulties thereto pertaining"), The Guardian, accessed 10 January 2020: https://www.theguardian.com/books/2014/mar/19/lost-school-poems-douglas-adams-griff-rhys-jones

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Monday, February 10, 2020

Never walk alone


Back on 3 February I had bookmarked a copy of a song which stirred my memory: Gerry & the Pacemakers, You’ll never walk alone. I keep singing it, which annoyed me – if I like a song I will sing it occasionally, not every day like this one. So I decided to look into the history of it.

The song was written for the Rodgers & Hammerstein* musical Carousel. It was written in 1945 and became an instant hit. Classic FM said it was “because the song’s message of triumph in times of adversity spoke to the wartime crowds of April 1945 – less than a month before the end of World War Two.”  It was made into an American film in 1956. I had spent many years with the Hamilton Operatic Society in New Zealand - which used to be called Drury Lane Theatre - and I seemed to remember seeing some old pictures of this show, Carousel, but couldn’t find anything on their website. A Google search took me to another Hamilton operatic group, called the Hamilton Operatic Dramatic Club which is based in the city of Hamilton in UK! It’s been around since 1903. They did Carousel in 1971.

Pacemakers sung You’ll never walk alone in their 1963 album How do you like it? and it was nominated for the Best British Song in the NMA Awards. It was shortly made into an anthem for the Liverpool FC. It has stuck to Liverpool FC since then and even the words were made of metal above the gates of the Liverpool stadium.

Many other football teams took on this song, including teams in Scotland, Netherlands, Germany, Belgium, Japan, Spain and Indonesia, and ice skating teams including Germany and Croatia.

In 1985, during a league match between Bradford City and Lincoln City, a fire in the Bradford City Valley Parade old stadium killed 56 people and injured 265. You’ll never walk alone became the memorial song for them, and led the city to demolish and rebuild the stadium.

You’ll never walk alone was sung by a cathedral choir after the disaster in Hillsborough in 1989. Liverpool FC was to play a semi-final against Nottingham Forest in the Sheffield stadium. There were areas only for Liverpool fans and, with many not yet in before the game started, the police opened the exit gates to let more in, which caused a stampede. 96 people were killed in a shocking crush, and police reports blamed the crowd. Wikipedia has a long report on this and many references, and it took 25 years, April 2016, for any justice to be finalised.

France Musique said this song was a hymn – it was not. It was a musical song which can be sung by any person who identifies it their own way. It does not mention “god”, it is not meant for “christians” – it is not religious. If you are Hindi or Buddhist or agnostic or atheist or the Green Fairy Follower then it is intended for you.

I am atheist. It is for me.


*Rodgers was atheist – he said so in his interviews. Hammerstein didn’t have any religious faith but thought he had faith “in mankind” and “something more powerful than mankind”. That was what he called religion, but he was not following any particular religion.

Wednesday, February 5, 2020

Motorcycle accidents


This morning I met up with a ‘young’ man (young means he’s not over 60!) who is in a wheelchair. He ended up in that after he was knocked off his motorbike a few years ago – 2010 – by a trailer set up incorrectly on a car. He ended up in hospital, and now he suffers lower body paralysis, and aphasia.

In 2010 my ex was knocked off his motorcycle. He bounced three times on his helmeted head and lost consciousness. He broke his shoulder and had cuts all over his body. I was rung at home by the hospital, and I provided care for him for months after that. He was over 50 but under 60.

A year ago the husband of a friend of mine was hit off his motorcycle by a driver who didn’t check the situation, and his foot was run over. He spent weeks in hospital in Brisbane. He’s not an ‘oldie’ either.

According to ABC in 2017, the article, titled Motorcyclists over 40 more likely to die on Queensland roads than young men says that men motorcyclists over 40 account for 75% of motor vehicle accident deaths. Their police inspector said that the results were from “speed, inexperience, and loss of control”. I really do wonder how that happens. Certainly, when I joined the Ulysses motorcycle club back in 2006, I knew how to ride a motorbike, but I sometimes wondered if some of those older people had simply gone back to riding after years off a motorbike – or just learned how to do it when they retired. However, some of the accidents which have been reported in the club resulted from car drivers who didn’t understand how a rider will ride.

A report from the government dated 2008 showed that between 1998 and 2007 the age of riders under age 24 only increased 0.3%, those aged 25-44 increased 2.1% and the riders over the age of 45 increased by 12.3%. They don’t explain how that happened, but they say that older riders, in particular, have been involved in fatal accidents. However, they also said that fatal accidents from 1999 – 2003 are predominantly in the mean age of under 44, and that the mean age of those which did not involve fatality are older riders.

The CARRS-Q report prepared by QUT in 2017 said that the registrations of motorcycle had increased in Queensland by 53.6% between 2007 and 2016, and that motorcycles “accounted for only 5% of Queensland vehicle registrations, yet motorcyclists accounted for 24.8% of the state road fatalities.

The Monash report dated 2018 gave a lot of statistics and I haven’t touch on them here, but there’s info about the riders – increased riders, increased fatalities. That’s on their page 82, if you are interested in the stats.

The Queensland Department of Transport and Main Roads have a page which gives stats from 2016 - 2019. If you’re interested, have a look.

I don’t own a motorcycle now – I sold mine a few years ago after my ex said he wouldn’t be riding again (I know he now is riding in NZ, but I’ve very rarely ridden in the last few years in Australia). If you have one, if you know a family member or friend who has one, then please make sure your bikes are insured, are maintained, and you KNOW how to ride. Don’t always think you might have the right of way – just look at the driver approaching where you do have the right of way, and make up your mind…. Just please, don’t ride into an accident!

Monday, February 3, 2020

The science of automation


The latest book I’ve been reading is titled The Best Australian Science Writing 2017, edited by Michael Slezak. There are plenty of modern science essays in this book, but the one that knocked on my mind was titled The machine generation, by Bianca Nogrady. She said that the “robots in our contemporary world are mechanical workhorses helping behind the curtain to make out industries safer and more efficient and economical. And yes, they are taking our jobs.”

Nogrady had been to the Sydney University’s Future Dairy research facility and watched cows milked by robots, not by humans. That’s not just out there in all dairy farms, yet, but it might not take much longer. Nogrady also wrote about automation in coal mine trucks – robotically driven, not human driven. She quoted Dr Carla Boehl from the Curtin University Western Australian School of Mines: “At the end of the day you end up with one person in the control room who can supervise or drive 20 trucks at the same time.”

Patrick, the logistics company, and the Australian Centre for Field Robotics, had joined up to test out the automatic “straddle carriers” which worked on the wharves in Brisbane (2005) and Sydney (now - 2017), cutting the numbers of staff in half. According to Torres, at BHP Billiton, maintenance people will still be needed, but their position will be very different in 15 year’s time.

And now, according to Nogrady, the science has taken on surgery. Robotic-surgery has been in Australia since 2003, but the next step is happening. Recently robotic-assisted surgery has helped surgeons to operate on men removing their cancerous prostate. The surgeon works through a 3D console, away from the patient, yet s/he still operates on them.

The thing that really turned my mind was the mention of autonomous vehicles. Nogrady quoted Professor Mary-Anne Williams from the Innovations and Enterprise Research Laboratory at the University of Technology in Sydney: “Would you be willing to put your two-year-old in an autonomous vehicle to be delivered to day care?” I would have never had to think of anything like this! My son and daughter are now in their mid-30s – decades after I took them to day care: I can’t imagine a two-year-old travelling on their own in an autonomous vehicle!

Nogrady’s essay is astounding. It’s readable. It’s in the future. At least, that’s how I see it. Perhaps those just now in their childhood might grow up with this being their everyday environment, but it’s not mine. Nogrady said that, for the cows getting robotically milked, “ignorance is indeed bliss”. For me, that’s the same way it will be.